Here we go again!!!!!

Well, Its been a while since my last post, but its been a lot of hurry up and wait, so didnt want to bore anyone. No, really, we have been at work behind the scenes. C has had a ton of appointments and is taking a ton of meds. I have had a few appointments and the usual Lupron. The only big change for me was Estrogen in pill form this time as apposed to patches last time. All I know is the pills have given me some killer headaches, but of course, I will survive. But most notable news, is C is having her egg retrieval tomorrow, which puts transfer day on wednesday of next week. I know she is nervous and anxious, but she will do great. When I was thinking of writing this post, all I could think of was holding her hand and saying a prayer. God said, "when 2 of you are together, I am also there" So, since we are not together tonight to do this, I thought I would write her a prayer, a prayer for her, for us, for this baby!!!!! Love you C & E and know you will do great tomorrow. Think lots and lots of eggs!!!!
Dear heavenly Father, We come to you today as your children. To honor you in everything you do. You are the almighty healer and the gret provider and you fill us abundantly every single day. You have created this new relationship between these two wonderful families, that we may honor you through our time and our bodies. We ask that you watch over both Celia and myself as we each undergo procedures this week. May we each have Dr's with clear minds and loving hearts as they help us bring a new life into this world. May this child bring us abundant joy but even more give you abundant joy and be a serving and honoring child of God. Of course, your will shall be done and no matter the outcome you have brought us together and will continue to provide for us and fill our lives with joy and love and the continued desire to serve you and be a blessing to you and also be a blessing to those around us as an ambassador of the love we recieve from you. In your almighty name we pray, AMEN
I will be thinking of you both tomorrow. Hugs and kisses to both of you!!!!

On the Road Again.....

Well, it's been a couple of weeks since I last wrote on here and a lot has happened. So I will try to give the short version. The week before last I got the phone call from C that they were thinking of switching Fertility Clinics. I cant say that I was totally suprised, but it was still a little bit of a shocker. The bottom line is that although they have a really good clinical staff, the office staff leaves a lot to be desired. This coupled with the fact that they do not do a specific procedure that may be needed at the next egg retrieval, we made the move. So within a week, we have switched doctors, I had a blood test on friday, tentativly scheduled the transfer and have already received my mail order meds. I would say we are ging full speed now. Looks like the next attempt will now be in early July. But, I think it has given us all a renewed hope and something to look forward to. Tonight we all went out to eat together. C & E and M & I with all our kids. We had a great time!! The kids were fairly well behaved and the food was great. Well, we stayed out way to late, so I will have to go for now. Will write again soon.

Mosquitos and Ice Cream: A Perfect Day

So, we have been trying to plan a time when C&E and my husband and I and our kids could get together. With busy schedules, work, school, sports, it is not as easy as you think. But, today after each of us attended our respective churches, we met early this evening for ice cream at the park. It was me, my husband and 3 kiddos and C&E and their daughter V. We got Baskin Robbins and headed to a nearby park. The kids played, we sat and chatted. Even with the man-eating mosquitos, no one seemed to be bothered. It really was great and luckily my children were somewhat subdued. I think it went great. Felt like family, like we'd known each other forever. It just comfirmed to M & I that we are doing the right thing and most definatly for the right people. Can't wait to get together again next weekend. Good-night for now, It is late and I have a long week ahead of me!!

Today starts a new adventure

I say today, but really it started last night. My period that is and it wasnt just a period, it was an exclamation point! It was heavy to say the least, but I guess that is to be expected. This morning I went in for my blood test to make sure my Hcg was back to zero and of course it was. I did talk to our nurse, Elena who will begin to think about dates and calendars and all thse things. We need to give C the next 4-6 weeks for her to recover from the last retrieval before moving forward with the next, but it looks like it will happen in July. It is coming right around the corner and will be here before we know it. I should be having lunch with C tomorrow. It will be good to see her, since I havnt seen her since friday when we got the news. We always have a good time, so I'm looking forward to it. We are also planning a family day this weekend to get both families together to do something fun. Looking forward to it! And of course, looking forward to our second try at a transfer later this summer.

Double post tonight, but Worthit, I PROMISE.

My mom sent me an email tonight, and this is so ironic because she has not been a big fan of what I am doing, but she did call me this week and express her sadness for C&E and what they were going through and gave me some kind words as well. I know she loves me, just maybe a little too much and worries, ALOT. But, nonethe less, here is what she sent me. It is from a friend of hers that email out words of encouragement weekly to his sales team.


When things go wrong as they sometimes will.
When the road you're trudging seems uphill.
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
and you want to smile but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit,
rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Success is failure turned inside out,
the silver tint on the clouds of doubt.
And you never can tell how close you are,
it may be near when it seems so far.
So stick to the struggle when you're hardest hit.
It's when things go wrong that you mustn't quit.
~Author unknown

New Day, New Plan

Tomorrow starts a new week and with it a new plan. Take 2 is already in the works, which makes the loss of the first transfer a little easier to take. We are waiting for my period to start. Can I say period on here? Anyway, once it starts we can start to make a calendar and calculations for C's egg retrieval and my transfer dates. So exciting. I think knowing what to expect will bring stress levels down this time and should be much more of an enjoyable experience for all of us. So, I cant believe I am saying this but I looking forward to starting this week to give us all some hope in our new plan. We are going to get C&E a baby, I just know it. We are in it for the long haul and couldnt imagine a better team than ours. And with the best Dr. and the best nurse, we will have success, we just need to not forget the patience!!!

When 3 is NOT the magic number

Well, in basketball 3-pointers are a good thing, in baseball a triple play, also good. triple coupon day at the grocery store, size 3 pants, and a triple scoop of ice cream-All great. A 3 on your beta Hcg test - NOT GOOD. So, today 14 days after our transfer we found out it didn't take. I know it seems like a time NOT to be making light or joking but its my biggest fault I guess to want to make it O.K. with a little laughter. Although I am sad, so sad for C & E I cant forget that everything happens for a reason and this too is in God's hands. I have to say this has been a wild new journey, but I couldnt have asked for better people to go through it with. I believe God places people in your life at unexpected times and for various reasons and the most wonderful friendships grow! I feel like I have known them forever, like they are family and although again todays news makes me very sad, I know that this is only the beginning of our journey and that we will only become closer and it will be even more special when it happens! To my new "sister" C, I have enjoyed our talks everyday and our get-togethers. You are a wonderful person and deserve all that you desire and I promise to do all I can to help you make it happen. And to our angel, Elena, who has walked us through this process, She has been such a "sweetie" through this process. she allowed herself to be emotionally involved in our case and it made it so much more special and easier for all of us. This will not be the end of my blog as I know our biggest journey is still in front of us. In one of my favorite songs by christian artist, Natalie Grant titled "Held" says that God didnt promise that bad things wouldnt happen, BUT, he did promise to love us and to hold us in his hands through these hard and sad times! I love you C&E and cant wait until July to start the next phase of our journey.

Friday: So close, but so far away!!

Well, Its Tuesday of week #2 in the 2 week wait. Friday is around the corner but with each day it gets closer, it actually feels farther away. I think I am getting a little more nervous the closer it gets. I just have to remember that this too is in God's hands. Of course for my anxiousness and nervousness, I know that C&E's is 100 times that. I am so excited for them to be parents of a new baby or babies. I am still very tired in the afternoon evening. I really think this is a good sign!! But, other than that I feel remarkably good. I will be having dinner with C tomorrow night for a little girl talk before friday. It should be fun and hopefully take the stress off everyone for a couple hours. And on with the power of positive thinking, we are already planning our celebration dinner for friday.

Mother's Day

Well, Today is Mother's Day, ironic since this post is about me trying to help someone else become a mother. This morning my kids have showered me with paper flower bouquets, cut-out hands with flowers on the tip of each finger in a little construction paper pot, and a big pink bag from my youngest who has left with her dad probably to get some breakfast for us. I of course am still sitting in bed. I have felt queasy for the last couple of days, this I hope is a good sign. Other than that, no other big changes. Except tired, very tired. Last week went by very fast, but this one is already taking forever. Friday is our blood test and we will know. Hard to believe how much all our lives could change with one little test. Well, I am thinking happy sticky thoughts for these 2 little eggs. Praying one or both decide to stick around. Will probably take an HPT tomorrow morning. Just cant wait much longer, but I'm sure as long as it is for me, It is doubly long for C&E.

In the beginning

My story starts with my desire to help another couple have the joy of a baby that I myself have experienced 3 amazing times. Happily married and mother of three, full time employee at a busy dental office and a part-time student why not have someone else's baby?? No really, the idea was so exciting to me to be able to help another couple conceive. In August of 2009, I met with a local surrogate agency and began this process. I then was matched with an amazing couple, C&E. I have to be honest, when the agency told me that they had matched me and wanted to set up a meeting, I was so nervous. But, as soon as we met them, we knew this was the right couple and we were making the right decision to move forward with them. This began many months of Dr. visits, psych exam, meds, and much more. Finally, last saturday we transferred 2 eggs, one was 8 cells, one was 7 cells. Crazy to think of, isn't it? So the 2 week wait began. My IP and I have mulled over doing a home test in the next couple of days, of course against the Dr. orders!! Lots of excitment to come, I hope. I wanted to create this blog as a gift for her, although she and I talk every day, her family and friends and my family and friends can now follow all the excitement.